I miss her- Journal 8

So today I read a blog that reminded me of my mother-in-law and also did a response to my writing group. A guy in my group wrote about losing his dad and how he changed his perspective about it. Instead of living in the sadness of losing him, he lived in the joy of once having him. I wish I could do that. I have such a difficult time with comprehension of death. It is not often, but occasionally I have a sad day. When I hear the song “blessings by Laura Story” I think about her because that song played at her funeral. I just miss my mother-in-law so much. She was so wonderful. She loved my boys so much. I look around at my friends kids that go and spend the weekend with their “Lala or Nanny” and it breaks my heart to know that my kids will grow up without feeling the love that she had for them. I hope I can show the love to my kids the way she loves her son. She passed away a little over a year ago. Some days it gets easier. They say time heals all wounds, but time has yet to heal it. It has bandaged it temporarily but occasionally the bandages fall off. She is the closest person to me that has passed away. I am thankful for the post I read today in my writing group, I will try to use his “perspective” on the death to try to help me on the days where she is all I can think about. Through this class I have realized how much complete strangers have in common. Since we started the blog and discussions, I have been able to relate to over half of the blogs that I have read.

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