Thursday, July 11, 2013

Ashes to Beauty – Journal 13

To me, I think it is crazy how much music can impact a person. Some songs shake me to my core. I listen to primarily contemporary Christian music and I find myself more encouraged on a daily basis when I am listening to it. I have a few favorite songs. One of my current favorites is “At the foot of the cross” but its not the hymn It is wonderful. The chorus says “I’ll trade these ashes in for beauty, I will wear forgiveness like a crown, coming to kiss the feet of mercy, I lay every burden down at the foot of the cross”. Hearing those words just gives me unspeakable freedom and joy. To know that I can lay down all of my sin and “crud” of life down and that I am still beautiful despite the things I have done. To know I can lay every burden down is so wonderful. I don’t know that I ever have really been able to. I feel like I finally was able to lay Tristan (my youngest son) down to God. With all of his medical things, I am able to have freedom of trusting God and knowing that I have absolutely NO CONTROL over what happens in that babies health. God is the only person who can control those circumstances around his diseases, diagnosis, and procedures. When he had brain surgery I just waited in the surgery waiting area. I will never be able to describe the feeling I had from the last time I saw him go back, to the very first time he saw me after surgery and recovery. It lasted from 11am-5pm. By far the longest 6 hours of my life. That was a burden on me and this song reminds me every time that I don’t have to be burdened.
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