I am tired~ Journal 1

I like to be encouraging and uplifting to others, but right now I am just tired. I am absolutely exhausted. I feel like I can’t catch up on sleep, or laundry, or the house. I will be leaving really soon to go to work and I just want to get in bed and go to sleep. School and work are taking it out of me. In addition to the kids and husband. Don’t get me wrong. I love my life and family, and I am extremely blessed. I don’t have to work; it is just something that we have decided would be best for our family right now to get ahead. It will give us the opportunity to get out of debt. We weren’t as wise as we should have been when we first got together. We got credit cards and I had no trouble running them up. I was a stay at home mom for 5 years. So now I am a full time college student, full time employee, and I still feel like a full time mom. I work from 11pm-7am, so when I get home from work, the kids are getting up and around which means on the days that I work, and I nap when/if they nap. Last Wednesday morning – Sunday evening I had a total of 11 hours of sleep. Please don’t take this as complaining, which is exactly what this is. I just am generally a very positive person, so I don’t have the opportunity to express any frustration I have often. Unfortunately the things that are on my heart and mind to blog about now are not very uplifting. I want to stress again that I am so excited for the future our family will have, but right now, it is just tiring. I keep on saying to myself and all of my friends, that it is just a season. I do believe it. We go through seasons, some easy and some hard. Some seasons are fun and some are sad. This is just a blink of an eye. In 3 years I will be completely done with school and both of my babies will be in elementary school. At that point I am completely confident that things will get a little easier. I am just today, very tired. 

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6-26-13